STARTING WEIGHT: 340

I was an overweight kid through high school etc...I am an emotional eater when I get mad, bored, depressed, or even in a good mood I eat.  As time goes on you just seem to get larger and larger and I think I never perceived myself to be so large.  Like I mean you know you are overweight but then you see a picture and you are like Oh my gosh that is not me. You avoid scales and new clothes at least I do and then before you know it your heart rate is going 139 when you are laying down you are at the hospital for chest pains and that is embarrassing and you have no energy to do anything even walk up the steps.  So when you ask me how I got here the initial response is I don't know but to come forth and be honest about it the true answer is from not caring, from not seeing myself as important or worthy of anything, maybe in ways as a protection and excuse not to do things, I know there are so many people out there that have many of the same reasons and probably more.  I start a new different diet every other day. I have sat through the weight loss surgery seminars and I am just afraid of that option. I have had personal trainers, gym memberships, you name it I've tried it from diet pills that make your heart feel as if they will jump out of your chest or nauseous to the diet Dr in Florida that prescribes speed and 10 ounces of protein a day haha extreme dieting I suppose you could call it..and.... after each diet that I fail I gain back the lost weight and then more as I am sure anyone overweight knows the drill.  I have a hard time putting me first and being selfish with my time.  I know however that when I do it does work. The biggest loser and this challenge have motivated me so much.  It is a shame it takes 5 seasons to get me off my butt and do something but you are truly not ready to do it until you really decide I've HAD ENOUGH! and I HAVE HAD ENOUGH! 

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Why have I had enough?

I am tired of being made fun of

I am tired of standing and holding peoples purses while they ride amusement park rides with my kids

I am tired of my child asking me to play with him and being to embarrassed to run around outside or to full of carbs to even move

I am tired of hiding and eating and lying to myself and others

I am tired of going on nice vacations and not even leaving the room

I am tired of going to a restaurant and as I follow the hostess through sizing up the spaces to make sure I fit and am not embarrassed or tipping someone out of their chair as I pass by

I am tired of not visiting my family in other states and avoiding friends b/c I am ashamed of the way I look!

I just turned 30 my life is more than half over if I don't do something about it.  I have hid all my life and I'm tired of hiding. 

FAT is a suit that destroys every aspect of your life from not feeling attractive and pushing your loved ones away to laying and bed as your days pass by and your children grow and this has to be the end.

I will be FAT NO MORE. I choose life and if I do not put myself first and choose LIFE then my consequences is undoubtedly death!

Why I choose to live....

Who could not choose to live.  I will be a better mom. I will be a better person.  I am worthy of this. 

I WILL SUCCEED!